one year.

has it really almost been a year already?

this has been the happiest, saddest, most challenging and beautiful year of my life.  it really has.  my daughter is almost a year old.  how did that happen!?  where did the time go?  gram has been gone for almost a year.  it doesnt feel like it, and  yet, every single day feels like a lifetime without her.  and sometimes i almost forget that she's gone.  

this year has led me to new places, and there are even more new places in my future...

welcome, autumn.

as I'm sure is obvious to any reader, i love autumn. i love the cool, the crisp, the crunch. the crackle of fire and the wafting swirl of hot breath in cold air. i love the freshness. i love the stillness after the chaos of summer.

autumn, in ways mentally emotionally physically and spiritually, changes my life.  the stillness of the season resonates with me, draws me to a quiet place.  causes me to be still and sllows me time to reflect on all the things I've been trying to outrun in the summer months.

this year, as most years, i breathed a heavy sigh of relief when the first cool day dawned.  the time is coming.  "there's healing coming" my spirit resonates.  there's change coming too.  so much change. as always, i am so excited and a little afraid.  as always, i am looking forward to finally having a moment to work through the chaos of this past year. to let some wounds heal and to grieve losses I've suffered.

so welcome autumn, you will find yourself well received and embraced here.

back to reality.

finally, labor day has come and gone.

finally, we get to live in a normal town.  well, for a few months anyway.  then the ghost-town-ness will set in and it will be desolate until april.

work was S L O W this morning.  and i couldnt be more excited.  oh, autumn.  ive missed you.

there's a big update coming.  now that i have time to write!  :)