some days...

some days are happy days. some days are calm days.  some days are chaotic days. some days are beautiful days and some days are dreary days.

some days are everything days.

the last few days have been a serious physical, emotional, and mental challenge.  for most parts of the last few days, its felt like complete chaos.  like my life was unraveling.  with moments of goodness mixed in.

but today, today i finally feel better, back to myself, a little more normal.  i feel like the overwhelming largeness of my circumstance, of all i have to do, of all thats on my shoulders, of all thats happening in my life, had caught up with me and i had a really really challenging few days.  lack of sleep didnt help.  other emotional moments, like grams birthday, didnt help.

when people said to me, 'moving away is one of the most stressful things you can do in your life.'  i thought, i dont know, ive been through a lot of stressful things.

now, i think it might  be true.

you live, you learn.